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Just Thinking…

In the soundtrack of my life, this song is somewhere in my list of top ten — mmmm, maybe top five:

Tell me some of your songs…



This is one of my favorite quotes from C.S. Lewis:

“A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic — on the level with the man who says he is a poached egg — or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God: or else a madman or something worse. You can shut Him up for a fool, you can spit at Him and kill Him as a demon; or you can fall at His feet and call Him Lord and God. But let us not come with any patronizing nonsense about His being a great human teacher. He has not left that open to us. He did not intend to.” – Mere Christianity, pages 40-41.

*****Artwork “Come Follow Me” by James T. Harwood

Confession: I am grumpy. I have not really written on this blog for almost a whole month because of my grumps. It’s actually worse than grumps but I don’t really want to hang my dirty laundry.  I don’t feel like being a downer.  I’ll just say I have some, it stinks, and am tired of it. So I’ll make light of it here and hopefully I’ll be back to my ol’ blogging self some time soon. In the mean time, I’ll share my opinions on some non-pressing matters:

1. Gentleman Broncos is a gaggy movie.  I don’t recommend it  (way too much body fluids, not enough Jermain).

2.  I wonder about people who take professional pictures of themselves with their pet.  Please don’t misunderstand me here.  Couples and their pets – fine.  Couples with children and their pets- also fine.  Child/Children with the pet – even more fine.  But a grown up person who goes and gets a professional shot of themselves and just their pet- not fine.  Even if done with irony.  I want to cry for them and yet I also want slap them across the face.

3.  My feet have been consistently cold for the past 6 months.  It’s getting warmer and my feet are still freezing. Explain.

4.  I think too much about body language.  But not with other people, only with myself.  When I am talking to someone and notice that my arms are crossed, I remember that this sometimes sends a negative message and so I slowly try to unfold my arms and hope that the person I’m talking to doesn’t notice.  Weird, I know.

5.  I’m going to eat the frozen Snickers ice cream bar in my fridge right now with no regrets.  I’ve decided that when I do eat junky food like that and think “I’m going to regret this” then I ‘m just being stupid.  Why beat myself up when I’m going to eat it anyway?  I’ll  just run like hell tomorrow.  No regrets.

This was random and negative and totally represents how I’m feeling right now.  Goodnight.

***photo by peeklondon on flickr

A Favorite Poem: #4

A Clear Midnight

This is thy hour O Soul, thy free flight into the wordless,
Away from books, away from art, the day erased, the lesson done,
Thee fully forth emerging, silent, gazing, pondering the themes thou lovest best,
Night, sleep, death and the stars.
~Walt Whitman

Good ol’ Walt. I live in a city that glows 24/7 and has a pyramid with thirty-nine 7,000 watt bulbs shooting a beam of light into outer space. My nights are not quite like Walt ever knew. I’m not complaining. I could just use a night like this every now and then.

How are the stars in your neck of the woods?

*****Photo Credit: http://www.juzaphoto.com

World Nutella Day

So, I thought I missed World Nutella Day. I had it in my head that it was February 2nd but it’s really February 5th (fwooo, that was so close). I’m not obsessed with Nutella.  It’s yummy.   I actually buy the store brand version of it sometimes cause I’m cheap like that.  What fascinates me is that somebody created this product, and it is so awesome that another somebody, or a group of somebodies dedicated a day to it.  What an honor.  What a privilege.  And frankly, I want to make something that awesome.  I want a “World (something La created) Day.”

So I’m going to eat this decadent delight not only because it’s delicious but I will eat it in honor of successful creative people everywhere who deserve a “World (something they created) Day.”    On February 5th, bust out that crepe recipe, your strawberries, your raspberries and your bananas, and celebrate WORLD NUTELLA DAY (echo echo echo…..).

Question:  If you could have a “World (something you created) Day”, what would it be?


Photo: Found through Google Images


I’m not sure what to call this here post.  I don’t want to sound cheesy.  Or preachy.  Or complainy.  I most certainly DO want to break rules of punctuation and make up my own words for the sake of emphasis.

We’ve had car issues up the ying yang.  It all started when the “Party Time” Cruiser  gave a good whine and then stopped running while El Jefe was dropping off The Todd at the airport.

Thank goodness for AAA.

As we wondered how to go about getting it fixed in the most affordable manner, the brakes on our other car started grinding.  And I mean grinding.  It’s a terrible feeling.  But you can’t just not use your brakes.  It’s a real problem.  One that we just fixed in the “Party Time” about a year and a half ago (it was bad, though, mostly because we let it go too long…ahem).

We had to avoid that issue with this car right? We were down to one car and we had to take care of that as well.

So El Jefe took the car so he could fix it immediately after work and my plan was to ride bikes to school with the kids.  Knowing I’d have to pump the tires because I hadn’t really ridden it this summer, I stepped into the back yard to set things up.  Huh, no bike.  I checked the side of the house.  I checked the shed.  I checked the courtyard again.

And then it hits me.  I’ve been robbed.  I check the back yard again and sure enough, El Jefe’s mountain bike (a nice one, that he got at a thrift store, to fix up and teach himself a little more about bikes) is gone as well.

“Are you kidding me?”  “Are you kidding me?”  I yell at the imaginary butt-head who stole our bikes.  (“Mom, we don’t say butt-head.” ” No we don’t unless somebody has stolen your bike, ok dear?”)

I felt so invaded.  So angry.  So like lemon juice was being poured on my paper cut.

But there was nothing to be done at the moment.  I changed the bike trailer into a jogging stroller (punks didn’t steal that because it was safely tucked away but I’m sure they would have taken it, too. Jerks.) and walked the mile to school while Chunk #1 rode his bike.  If you’re wondering why Chunk #2 didn’t ride her bike, it’s because we tried that, and oh my heavens it was a long trip.  She has since agreed to the trailer (or rather the stroller) for now.

As you can guess, walking gives time for thinking.  I wanted to cry at my situation.  But there wasn’t time right then.  No, instead, I remembered a talk that I just happened to listen to the day before (coincidence? I think not!). I felt connected because of the car theme.   The working towards a stable future thing.  And then the feeling vulnerable and foolish thing.

I’ll share because it helped me when I needed it.  (I will now tell myself “Don’t you quit!”)

Please enjoy.


Chasing Stars

“I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.”
~Jack Kerouac


photo by el jefe


Jack’s quote from “On the Road” makes me feel better about myself.

I recall a discussion with my mother many years ago. She is a realist. I am not. There are a few times in my life where this made us clash (just a bit). The discussion was based on my disposition of being interested in too many things. I didn’t understand. What was wrong with wanting to learn piano, violin, dance, swimming, basketball, volleyball, softball, photography and still manage going to school? Later in life I tried my hand in drawing, modern dance, long distance running, racquetball, tennis, writing, mountain biking, and who knows what else. I thought this was normal. My mom’s point was that if I didn’t discipline myself in just a few areas I will master nothing.  Well, of course she was right. But, my disposition hasn’t changed. These days I continue spreading myself too thin.  These days I would love to learn to cook and bake better, sew better, make quilts, learn woodworking, gardening, guitar, be organized, read more, learn more at home renovation (?!), do another triathlon, go back to the piano, be a better mommy, learn about herbs, and write, write, write.

“I like too many things” but I won’t fight it anymore.  I’ve stopped chastising myself.  I will keep chasing stars and getting confused.  I love this world.  I want to experience everything in it.  Is it bad that I’ll never master anything?

I don’t feel like answering that right now.

For now, I’ll just write about it.  This blog is not a niche blog.  I’ve not mastered the art of motherhood or wifehood.  My writing is amateur.  My photography is mostly stolen from my husband.  And everything else will get thrown in the mess.  “I have nothing to offer . . . but my own confusion.”


What stars have you been chasing lately?